Call me impulsive or I may have the sickness of seeking for instant gratification. Usually when my heart is set on to something that I like, I make sure that I get it no matter what.
But things are quite different for now as it is in the middle of the month and I am waiting so patiently on some good news that I have been wanting to hear. And because of this situation of mine that “I’m waiting for the cards to be dealt”, I can’t satisfy my internal cravings.
Good Lord, please give me strength to control myself not to…
- barge in an Apple Store and swipe my card or even call my Mom to get it for me or..
- click the CHECK OUT button in every online shopping site that I visited that has my not so empty shopping cart or..
- visit Bobbi Brown and MAC and get persuaded in buying the make up that I THINK I need or…
- get that Rebecca Minkoff MAC that I’ve been lusting for a couple of days now..
I am not used to this! I do research and sound choices but afterwards I have to get it immediately. Im a Gemini in terms of my finances even. I have that impulsive and insatiable Hyde inside me when I’m maintaining a money smart and in control Dr. Jeckyll. And unlike everybody else that can just ‘brush it off’, I just simply can’t. Every ounce of control I am mustering here and and Im almost barely hanging onto a thread now.
This is torture!!!
