House of Stef

I believe in, “what’s meant to be mine, will be mine” and “all in God’s time”.  It’s a tough “words to live by” especially when you want or dream of things so badly. 

Then there’s this thing of giving yourself a deadline.  You start to think, do you even want to have a deadline? It’s good to have it though so you can limit yourself in waiting.  But what if what you are aiming for doesn’t happen?  Makes you feel that you shouldn’t have set it so you still can keep on dreaming. Then now, you face the inevitable question of “what happens next?”.

Yeah I know, sucks to feel stucked.

Call me impulsive or I may have the sickness of seeking for instant gratification. Usually when my heart is set on to something that I like, I make sure that I get it no matter what.

But things are quite different for now as it is in the middle of the month and I am waiting so patiently on some good news that I have been wanting to hear. And because of this situation of mine that “I’m waiting for the cards to be dealt”, I can’t satisfy my internal cravings.

Good Lord, please give me strength to control myself not to…

- barge in an Apple Store and swipe my card or even call my Mom to get it for me or..

- click the CHECK OUT button in every online shopping site that I visited that has my not so empty shopping cart or..

- visit Bobbi Brown and MAC and get persuaded in buying the make up that I THINK I need or…

- get that Rebecca Minkoff MAC that I’ve been lusting for a couple of days now..

I am not used to this! I do research and sound choices but afterwards I have to get it immediately. Im a Gemini in terms of my finances even. I have that impulsive and insatiable Hyde inside me when I’m maintaining a money smart and in control Dr. Jeckyll.  And unlike everybody else that can just ‘brush it off’, I just simply can’t. Every ounce of control I am mustering here and and Im almost barely hanging onto a thread now.  

This is torture!!!

Omg.  I feel like I’m going insane! First of all, it feels like my heart is going to burst because of this huge thing that I need to keep. Writing is my therapy but I couldn’t even write it out for now.  And all these with the stress that I’m feeling with scouting for a new house is really driving me nuts!  I’m eager and bummed out at the same time. Yes, it is possible.

Also, I am starting to feel the financial “bite” that happens when you are single and independent.  My October until early November is action packed that financially, I am juggling.

Oh lord, please don’t let me fall off the horse.  I pray things go smoothly as planned.  I know that you want all these to happen and I truly thank you, but help me maintain my focus and sanity along the way.  

Gosh. I think I worry too much. Anyway,  will update you when the magic happens!

Hey guys! Sorry I have been busy, busy, BUSY lately. It’s not about work. It is actually kinder to me now that I am doing morning shift (normal person’s working hours. YAY!). I have been preoccupied with my new baby…

my FOOD BLOG baby!

I’m stepping it up and I bought my own domain as a start. 

check me out… www.houseostef.com

So most of my friends thought I’ve been doing it for the longest time. Yes, true, but my food reviews was mixed with my personal issues blog.  It is nothing more than a BLIP. I’m regretting why I have not done it sooner.  Probably it would’ve been so successful by now.  Get invited to just eat and write about them.. how sweet is that?! Anyway, I’m dipping my feet again in the blog business.  Gonna pimp it out and grow it big!

Now, I’m in the process of learning the ropes again. I totally forgot how to do html again. For this, I might seek the professional help of my friend to make it more like a food magazine type. And I will probably visit again the restaurants that I thought was worth blogging about and take better pictures.  (I have been encouraging Bob to learn the dslr well so he can help me with the photography aspect.)

Please check out my site and subscribe if you like.  Would mean a lot to my ego. HAHA!

I’ve missed you tumblr and yes I shall keep you still.  A girl needs something to rant on. Thanks for being my “listening ear”.

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